When people first enter our lives, we never see them as a whole. At first we only see abstract details of a person. We put these little details together as we come to know somebody, creating a full image. That being said, we don’t ever meet someone and immediately feel the urge to save them. It takes months or even years to learn about someone’s broken pieces and to love those pieces. Sometimes we just want to love someone, and we put everything into that love because deep down we want to be the one who saves them. It’s almost unconscious, the desire to fix someone. But that desire to be a someone’s shining light, to be their anchor takes love.
Sometimes saving someone means we have to fill the cracks between someone else’s broken pieces with parts of ourselves. Sometimes we drown ourselves in the hopes of keeping someone else breathing.
Can you feel the tears in your eyes? You know you’ve done this before because we all have. It is in our nature to love fiercely. You can cry, I know it hurts. Sometimes it feels like the hurt is too much to carry, as though it is a fire ripping through you and there will soon be nothing left.
But it feels so good too, doesn’t it? To love someone so much you wouldn’t mind not being okay, so that they are. It feels good to break yourself in order to make someone else. I think it’s a beautiful quality to have. A love that burns but also builds. I think that kind of love is extraordinary because although it takes a lot, it always gives you something. Strength. Courage. Hope. I am who I am because of the way I love. I’m proud of who I am and the heart that I have. It makes me fearless. It makes me alive.
Be that person, love hard. Cry when it aches and be proud of the fact that your heart is magical. How lucky the people are whom we choose to love and hope for. I truly believe that through all the hurt and chaos, there is peace in knowing that you threw your heart into something with all your might and sometimes that is more than enough.
I still believe. I still believe that kindness and love are important. I believe that even in darkness, there is always hope. I still believe that in a battle between loss and love, love will always win. Always. I also believe that pain and love sometimes enter into our hearts holding hands and that sometimes they never let each other go.
“The only calibration that counts is how much heart people invest, how much they ignore their fears of being hurt or caught out or humiliated. And the only thing people regret is that they didn’t live boldly enough, that they didn’t invest enough heart, didn’t love enough. Nothing else really counts at all.” – Ted Hughes