There are many things that I want for you in this life. I know that life is tough and terrifying, and I know that you feel lost right now. But I want you to know that I am here. I will always be here. Even when you cannot see me, or even when you feel like the loneliest person in the world. My heart holds you close, and with each beat, a wish for your happiness. Sometimes I wonder if this is just how it is all supposed to be, I wonder if we all just have no idea what we are doing. I know that’s how I feel. I think maybe that’s why it’s so important to have people around you. People with whom you can share it with. Maybe life is supposed to be uncertain, but the people in it, aren’t. Maybe we are supposed to be unwavering structures in each other’s lives, and that’s what keeps us going. Not always, but mostly.
I want that for you. I want you to have people around you who make you feel loved, supported, and cared for. I want so much for you. I want you to love yourself, to see in you what others see. I hope that one day you will love yourself enough to be good to yourself. I think we forget to take care of ourselves sometimes, it becomes a habit and before we know it, we have forgotten how. I want you to breathe easy, to understand that sometimes we simply don’t understand. Not everything is meant to be understood. Some things are only meant to be, exist. Some people and situations simply provide life experience, and we only learn how to cope, and never understand why we had to endure the pain. I want you to know that it’s okay. It’s okay to let go of the old pain, and hold on to the lesson. I want you to be free of anger and hurt. I want you to let it all go.
I wish I could take it all away from you, but I can’t. It’s not within my power. I want you to know yourself, and with that knowing, I want you to trust yourself. Trust your heart, know where it wants to be and allow it to feel. I want you to trust your decisions and not doubt your choices. When you know yourself, you can tell what it is you need, what you can handle and what you have to walk away from. I want you to build yourself up, fill all the broken parts with forgiveness and love. I want you to feel complete within yourself, to feel worthy and enough. Because, you are. You do not have to feel empty because all that you need is within you. You have the strength and the courage live a life full of hope. You deserve it, and do not let anyone make you feel like you don’t.
Take your time to work through things, build yourself up again if that’s what you need. Learn about yourself. Let your soul do the talking, listen. Don’t give up on yourself. You are worthy, and one day you’re going to see it. I want that for you. I want you to fall asleep at night knowing that you are responsible for the greatness that you are. I want you to be proud that you made yourself, during a time when you felt broken. When you felt as though the darkness was taking over, you created your own resilient and determined spirit. I want that for you. Have it.
I am always here.